-Clarissa Helene Constantinos, Encyclopedia of Syban Volume 3 (Incline Village: Syban Publishing 2026).
Ishtar’s Journey
I saw us both in a beautiful temple and it looked like it was in ancient Egypt or Atlantis. We both have been lying on an altar parallel to each other and we couldn’t move for some reason. I looked at you and I had tears running down my face.
A high priest was standing in front of us doing some black magic rituals and then he started “cutting” our energetic connections with each other with a kind of laser beam. From the top of our head down the whole body to the bottom of our feet. Every single chakra and energetic line we have been connected with each other, he was cutting through. They look like golden threats and we exchanged our feelings and energy through them.
And it was hurting us physically, mentally and emotionally. Our souls have been screaming out of pain.
I could feel this pain in my meditation like it was done in real life now.
We looked at each other and we couldn’t do anything against it because we have been paralyzed. We both knew what this meant for us and you looked at me with tears in your eyes and you sent me a kind of telepathic message saying :
” I promise you my love, I will find you and we will be reunited again “
Reincarnation journey
Where have you arrived now?
I went down the steps and see something like the Pantheon, Of the Gods, like the Olympus of Greece, where the gods live.
I went to my seat and took my place there. Other Gods were there too.
This pantheon, I see there, is in Atlantis. The building was a kind of pyramid but in a kind of pantheon, like one of my pictures I painted.
I and the other gods and goddesses gathered there to have a “meeting”, a council session.
The next pictures is showing me the same events that I have seen over and over again in my meditations months ago.
I’m in a temple room, a sacred room, with lots of symbols and stones.
Two stone altars with Apollo lying on one and I on the other one.
We are lying paralyzed and this high priest performs this ritual of separation on us with a laser crystal. All chakras, all subtle connections between Apollo and me were cut through. I feel the same unbearable pain on my chest, in my heart chakra and all over my body right now, which I have felt for months when I see these pictures.
What is happening?
What to these priests who fulfilling this dark ritual look like?
Dark clothing with a sign on a chain. Aliens, their faces are obscured and they have headgear. A very cold and dark energy emanates from them.
Human-like but not human. Slim, tall, gray.
Dark eyes and not a friendly face.
How do you look like?
Apollo and I are both have blonde hair. He has curls and I have very long straight white blonde hair and green eyes. We both have very light skin, almost white.
We are bigger than the aliens and bigger than the humans of that time.
Apollo has a very muscular body and looks like a Greek
god to me. I look like a Greek goddess but very delicate figure.
We also have white tunics with gold decorations, like the Greek Miranda but in a wave shape. Apollo is equipped with all the symbols of “Apollo”. With a harp, the crown as an olive branch, a white dove.
For some reason I now see Apollo eyes as I know them now. His eyes are blue and he has a small green dot in the iris of one eye. And for some reason I’m shown this picture, but I don’t know why.
So part of his iris on one eye is a different color.
But now I don’t know what that means.
Ask your soul what it wants to tell you with this picture?
This is a symbol of my soul part.
He has blue eyes.
Now take a small step back in your mind and remember what the ritual was like to take your soul part out of you?
With that question, I was brought back to this hall, to this pantheon of the gods. There was a meeting there. A meeting took place and a decision was made.
Apollo and I have agreed to take on an important role/ part in this. He stands next to me and holds my hand. And he kisses me on my cheek and lovingly pulls me close to him. We were lovers. He was my divine counterpart. My husband.
Zeus is also one of those present gods. And he had a leading position there.
Now I’m shown this Stargate that I already know from the reincarnation journeys with Zeus. The Stargate which Zeus then destroyed in the end and Atlantis was destroyed and falling with it as well.
This whole review has something to do with this story.
Now I see this Stargate that he blew up, to prevent an alien invasion of planet Earth. At that time he had made the choice that the fall of Atlantis was the lesser evil than leaving this Stargate open for an invasion. I shared this story with you yesterday.
This discussion has to do with the fact that something needs to be done to prevent that. To prevent this invasion. And Apollo and I have agreed to take on part of this task.
Zeus also has “feelings of guilt” towards me and he also has something to compensate towards me.
He had the position and the energy to convince me to take on this task.
Apollo had a lot of ambition, what he has now, he wanted to make a name for himself. He wanted “fame” for what had to be done.
I know that Zeus was “Alexander” and apparently Zeus and Apollo liked and respected each other like “brothers”.
Zeus was also somehow like my “brother” there on Atlantis.
But Zeus is from a different soul family than Apollo and me.
Apollo and I are soulmates. We are from the same soul family.
Zeus has a different soul family tree than us.
But the two have a strong connection to each other, like very close brothers.
My feelings for Zeus today as his “sister” are the same as I had for him back then. All three of us were very close and Apollo and I had a very deep love for each other. And what was special about our relationship was that together we had extremely strong energy, strength and power.
That’s why we were able to take on this particular task together.
Apollo and I agreed to take on this task and it had something to do with this Stargate. There have been other couples who had taken on different tasks, each matched to their abilities.
When I follow my feelings inside of myself, I wasn’t even aware of what would happen to me and all the effects that will occur.
But Apollo had other motivations.
But the responsibility when you do certain things as a divine being, the consequences are more serious and magnificent than if you do these things as a human being.
And yet the real consequences were not really clear.
Go into your consciousness at the time and look what you can see, recognize your feelings. Have you been aware of what was going to happen to you?
None of those present wanted to cause any harm.
Of course not, none of these divine beings present wanted to bring about a catastrophe. All the divine beings present there in Olympus are in light, with white robes and we are surrounded by light. But I see “shadow beings” in the background, apart from us.
Other beings who represent other interests. They are in the shadows.
They look very similar like the high priest who separated Apollo and myself.
These are beings who do not reveal themselves. They are only recognizable as shadows, not in their real essence.
They are masked. Like a masquerade.
I was guided to our bedroom and he was pampering me and making love to me and during this act of love he said to me:
“We can do this, you and I together. We can do this together”
He pampered me and talked to me, he kept saying that he had also talked to Zeus about it and that he was also convinced that we could both do it together.
I receive other pictures and additional information.
I and Apollo seem to have developed very good techniques in making love with each other, especially on our home planet of Venus.
We were both very attuned to each other and “trained” so that when we performed this act of divine union together, with a certain level of awareness.
As if a birth occurs in the soul.
When two Venusian beings make love to each other, it is not just a purely physical act and a physical connection, but the two souls also connect. But I can see this connection outside of the body.
During the act, the two souls connect and weave into each other, outside of the physical body. And something seems to have been done there in this moments.
So in the sexual act and how I gave my consent to the situation.
Like I said, yes I do this out of love for you.
I see it now, the situation was such that we performed a sexual act, with the corresponding energy exchange involving other aspects of devotion.
And as I gave my verbal consent because I loved him so much and because I was naturally so turned on, that’s when it happened.
I see our two bodies on the bed and the two souls of us outside connecting, interwoven like a big ethereal heart. A fusion with each other.
Please go back into this event and into this room and see if you two were really alone.
We were alone, but I see a crystal in the corner. A laser crystal.
This laser crystal was aligned exactly where this etheric heart of our souls was formed. It was like a programmed laser crystal.
We have been alone since it was our private bedchamber.
There must have been some outside influence.
I see this crystal that was aligned like a laser, that was programmed like a computer. Which starts to be activated at a certain level of energy, sexuelle energy.
I see a straight laser beam shooting straight towards this etheric heart after we reached this energy level. That’s how it happened.
The laser was programmed to cut out a part of my soul and that part of my soul was merged into Apollo’s soul.
In this moment when that happened, I don’t know if Apollo was aware of what was happening.
Then ask him what his part in it was.
He doesn’t want to give me an answer, as usual.
He looks away and can’t look me in the eyes.
Then he probably has a bad conscience.
He closes his eyes and he starts crying.
Now I hear the voice of Moo Jad saying:
“Guilt does not exist only responsibility”
I want you to stay in this emotional state but in the past. While you realized what was happening in this act of love that was abusive, what was happening for you and what meaning there was behind it.
That’s one of the reasons why it’s so difficult for me today, to give myself over to a man as a woman. Opening myself, the woman’s devotion, what a woman’s natural opening is, for example opening her legs with devotion to your love partner etc.
The memory of the “abuse” as soon as I surrender, that was abused like in this act of love. And because I, the being, the goddess that I am, the daughter of Isis and Osiris, that a natural act of allowing this surrender in sexuality and these qualities of a women and because this was so shamefully abused at that time, I had a trauma with it.
This natural devotion, inherent in me as the goddess of love and sexuality, is a quality I inherited from my soul parents: my father Osiris and my mother Isis.
As a divine being, it has a completely different meaning, and because it happened to me as a divine being, it had entirely different consequences.
And because I did it out of love and trust for Apollo, and of my own free will, I now find myself standing before him, unable to feel even anger, only sadness and disappointment. My love for him is so strong that I cannot even be angry with him.
And I just looked with tears into his eyes and said to him:
“What have you done”?
I had already recognized the consequences and didn’t even try to resist.
I didn’t have the strength to fight it or defend myself against this abuse of love.
I was simply apathetic, so traumatized and shocked that my devotion had been so abused by my own soulmate.
Apollo and I went down to the temple chamber together. He held my hand, my eyes were completely blank, I was numb.
I lay defenseless on the altar and let things happen. All I could do was look at him again and again and ask: What have you done to our love? To me?
All I could do was cry.
I had no defense mechanism.
I only felt this terrible pain as they began to separate us with that laser. I experienced the entire chain reaction that followed this soul theft as if in a trance. I simply let it all happen because Apollo’s betrayal had left me deeply numb. Without resistance, I laid down my breastplate, my bracelets, and all other insignia of my power as a goddess.
Like in the myth of “Inanna” goes to the underworld and has to give up all her worldly power.
There was no more resistance from me, I can’t even describe how I felt there.
You gave up the resistance with this part of your soul.
I can’t bring myself to “hate” him for what he did to me.
To this day I can’t do that either, even though he has hurt me so many times in this lifetime as well. I feel the pain, but I can’t even place this pain.
It’s not hate, it’s not anger, it’s just soul pain.
Because you gave your consent out of love for him, without knowing hundred percent and seeing the consequences. And certainly not in the act of love.
I gave myself to him because of my need for closeness, for union, for our souls to merge and because we really enjoyed the act of love together. And that was such an enrichment for us in our divine bodies. In that act of love a child was conceived that died before it was born.
And I see that our energy has sent ripples across the country.
I think you know that for a long, long time, the holy marriage of the King and the High Priestess fertilized the land and the people and stabilized and nourished them energetically. It was even like that among the ancient Celts and older high cultures.
Sexuality is the expression of your divinity and the energy for the union of masculine and feminine energy released in the act is the nourishment for the Planet for growth and abundance.
This is the unconditional love that spread with the waves of our love affair. For it wasn’t just sexuality; it connected us on a deeper, multifaceted level. We were bound together by these golden threads—mentally, physically, spiritually, and emotionally.
Other couples had different qualities, different energies, like the various zodiac signs.
But for us, Apollo and me, it was the unconditional love we felt for one another. And especially with the Goddess I embodied and Apollo as the God, the energy at our union was extremely high, and our love for each other was unconditional.
Our connection and union unleashed immense power.
I now get the information that Apollo remembers that “feeling” of making love with me and those vibrations, and he is looking for that feeling in other women and couldn’t find it. And that’s why such an emptiness arose in him, like a hole, like a void in his soul.
Just like Zeus had a hole in his soul a long time ago, which arose from his “feeling of guilt”. But guilt doesn’t exist in the universal law, only responsibilities. Guilt is a fabrication of the power structures of this three dimensional world.
I helped Zeus to heal that void long time ago.
Apollo flies like a bee from one flower to another and finds no satisfaction or love in any women. Although he tries the techniques of intimacy and everything but he doesn’t find that special feeling and satisfaction of the soul. And his own soul constantly reminds him of this feeling.
And there’s something else.
He finds no satisfaction, neither in sexuality nor in the unfulfilled pursuit of success and power. He didn’t gain that power through his betrayal of me either. In doing so, he also sold his soul. Not only was a part of my soul stolen, but he sold himself, thereby energetically binding me to this group of dark gods, the aliens.
I wasn’t even aware of the full consequences of his actions at the time.
Apollo sits across from me and weeps.
He buries his face in his hands and weeps.
Perhaps he remembers and senses something now, that some things become a little clearer to him, even if he doesn’t remember that time in Atlantis. He has some kind of memory, otherwise he wouldn’t have chosen Santorini for our meeting.
Since Santorini is connected to ancient Atlantis. And I bought a white dress with golden decorations. I have sent him a photo, something seemed to had an effect on him.
Where are you now?
Now I’m back in the temple where this energetic separation from us was performed.
He had made a promise there, something like a “soul contract”.
How I lay there and he saw me so traumatized and full of tears and the whole impact actually became aware of him, conscious in the sense that he also felt the pain that the separation from both of us had caused on him.
This laser device, the crystal that the high priest uses here to separate us, was the same one that was in our bedroom. And when it all became clear to him, he made a promise to himself and to me that he would find me again. Apollo waited for me to scream to him or get angry, but I just didn’t do anything and I was apathetic.
And then he made this promise that he would find me. It was an oath.
He made promises that he would make amends for what he had done to me and our soulmate connection. That when he finds me again he will never let me go again. And he made a promise to himself that he would punish himself for what he did to me. He promised himself that he would never be happy again and that he would not find true love until he made this right.
I see now, like a red lineage, his entire lifelines, incarnations, up to this point and into today’s life.
Apollo was always looking for something, no longer knew what he was looking for and actually couldn’t find it. He lived “happy” lives and a lot of unhappy lives, but he never found that love again and never
found the fulfillment anymore. And now I see the hole in his soul has gotten bigger and bigger. And in this life today he has decided to finally put things right. Because he repeatedly ran away from me in previous existences.
He ran away from the responsibility, it’s not the guilt, it’s the responsibility he didn’t want to face. He was afraid of it.
And he was afraid that if I found out everything that happened back then in Atlantis, I would hate him or no longer feel love for him.
But in the last few months I have shown him again and again that there is nothing that can destroy my love for him and this has reduced his fears.
I show him what it means to live unconditional love and that has done something in him and it reminds him of our time together in Atlantis.
But Zeus also had some responsibility for this story. With the competence and
responsibility he had back then, and as the man he is today, with his power and his claim to leadership. He has also talked and convinced me and said, you can do this and especially to persuade me to do this work.
As chairman of the council, he also found the idea and the distribution of tasks to be a good thing, and of course had to convince the other gods of this. And of course it was easy to find someone like me, who, out of blind love for her lover and her brother, allowed herself to be convinced and went along with it.
And of course, the two men also wanted to boost their egos with it.
Both men have burnished their egos in the process.
And I was the price for it.
Zeus also had to prove that he wanted to make amends towards me for everything.
He doesn’t realize it consciously, but he knows that he has to make up for a lot of what happened back then.
And that his ego also caused a lot of damage.
This is just how our love triangle has been for the last couple of thousand years.
Please go into another incarnation with Apollo that you experienced together.
With the desire to see, what efforts you both have already made to get back together and heal this.
He was an artist, a writer, a poet and a composer. And I was his muse.
But that was like our life today. I don’t get his name back then, but he was very famous with his music. But I was his muse from a distance, like today.
I see, that I have enriched him with my writings and letters that I have sent him. We sent each other long letters.
Do you have an approximate time? Or a location?
It was in France.
He was a composer in the 16 – 1700 centuries.
His love for me inspired him to write and also music. But he couldn’t live this love. It was an unfulfilled love for each other. It was never fulfilled.
And out of this unfulfilled love, out of this pain, he made such music.
The pain of this unrequited love made him a great composer. And music still connects us today. And the lyrics in the music are very important for him or the music itself. He gets involved in the vibrations, he is a typical Venusian soul.
And my messages today remind him of the bond of love from back then.
He didn’t know at the time whether the pain of this unfulfilled love brought him such great success or whether the love of fulfilled love would have brought him more success.
He won’t be sure today either because he hasn’t had any experience with real love in his life until today, other than meeting you.
So are you ready to return to our world?
I have to go back to these two men and say goodbye.
So Apollo is still kneeling on the floor with his head in his two hands and crying. I kneel down in front of him and take both of his hands in mine and I hold his face in my hands and tell him to stop crying.
Everything will be okay now.
That we’re going to heal now everything and that I’ve forgiven him for what he did to me. But that he also has to take his steps and his share of making amends and bringing us together. I give him a kiss on the forehead and hug him, he doesn’t want to let me go and he asks me if I’ll come back to him.
I said yes.
Now I’m going to Zeus, he’s waiting for me there.
I put a hand on his heart and say to him: “I have forgiven you a long time ago, you know that and everything is fine. And we will always love each other as brother and sister. I also give him a hug, but it’s completely different.
I further say to him: you will take your power for yourself and you will make amends in your own way and redeem your karma.
Zeus says to me: “I don’t know how you recognized all of this and were able to see all of this in your current life, these connections and the steps that were all necessary. But I thank you for giving me the opportunity to make everything right.
And not just with you Ishtar, but also with what I have done here in Atlantis. And I’ll go my own way now. You will always be my spiritual teacher.”
I go back to Apollo and put my hand in his.
Can you tell me today what incarnation I had with Zeus, where I left him and where he still believes today that he has a claim on me?
Yes, after you have remembered the problem that you created for the world and yourselves in Atlantis, it is permissible to tell you something about it.
Something your soul will only allow in images and memories when the aspect of your soul that was stolen from you is your own again.
But I can still give you a few tips now.
There has already been, not only in Atlantis, but in another earthly life, a love affair between you and the robber of your soul share, and that is why you left the man you were married to.
But that was just one life, one existence that took place in an area of this planet that today belongs to the Arabian region.
Another existence took place in Egypt and he was your son.
You gave birth to this son and loved him, but you did not like the path that was planned by the Father, a path that had to do with power, with government and things like that. As a mother, you released it. You couldn’t and didn’t want to see this path for your child back then. I’m telling you, and this is something you know about humans. Human mothers often can’t let their sons go.
And that was the problem you were struggling with at the time and that’s why you left him. Last but not least, this also meant that he could not have a good relationship with his birth mother in this life, and she could not have a good relationship with him either, because he was free to her.
And he always looked for his mother from back then.
In this life you have a different position towards him. It was planned that you would have a relationship in this life that included what people call a marriage, but he is still very much your son.
I think that I have found a good way to make this “release” with him so that we can continue to be there for each other and live our love in a different way. And he knows that I will always be there for him. Also as his spiritual guide.
I agree with you one hundred percent, my dear friend.
You have found a good way to continue living your love, with a different task and not just one but several.
And just like yesterday in the regression I saw and felt that I love him like a sister and he is like a kind of brother to me. That’s what I feel for him now.
Even though he may still feel different, for me it has been so transformed.
I’m telling you, and I agree with you, that’s something you know, human men often have a very different time breaking away from their mothers.
“The center of this world—the Hyperborean home of the gods,
Atlantis, Tihuanaco, Lemuria, Avalon,
and other ancient civilizations—
consists of islands that emerge from the fruit of Agape.
Atlantis will rise again in all its splendor and grace, filled with love and light.
The legacy of Atlantis will inspire future generations”
Clarissa H. Constantinos
